Love!!!

Mannequin.

When I watched this as a kid, it helped me to realize that my true love would come in a "different" from. Not a mannequin THOUGH. But in the form of a man. Even as a kid I knew I was gay. This unique romance unconsciously let me know that!

Free to Be

Late last year, I read a touching post from RuPaul's blog:

Monday, June 12, 2006
AN IMPORTANT MESSAGE FROM ARI GOLDA letter to my community of friends and family,While I have always in the past tried to keep my emails light and happy with all of my career successes, for the first time I am compelled to say something that I feel very strongly about, something that is quite serious, regarding the terrible, disgusting, despicable and infuriating thing that happened to my very dear friend and beloved artist to the worldwide gay community Kevin Aviance. Perhaps I need to write this for myself for my own therapy, but this time, I don’t care. Most of you have probably already heard that Kevin was the victim of a hate crime. He was verbally and physically assaulted by 5 guys and is now recovering in the hospital from a fractured jaw and a busted knee. His face is swollen and he has bruises on his forehead. His jaw must be sewn shut for at least 2 weeks in order to heal. Coincidentally or not, this has happened to Kevin during gay pride season...a time when us gay performers make a huge portion of our yearly income. I don’t need to go into more details regarding the assault and beating as it has already made the cover of the Post, the Daily News and received coverage in the New York Times and all national news programs including CBS, NBC, and FOX. NYC Mayer Bloomberg has called the crime “unacceptable.” Kevin is strong and he is thankfully doing well. His spirit is as strong as ever. I have personally received an outpouring of mail from people who have expressed their concern. But I do need to take this opportunity to step on the proverbial soap box and say that in case anyone was wondering why we have to be “out” artists or “gay artists” and why we have to make our sexuality an issue and in case anyone has questioned why we are fighting for the right to be married—THIS is why. NOT because so many of us hold marriage as something that we want so badly (although many of us are in real positions of needing those rights when it comes to our real lives with our partners)...but because we need to teach our children and society at large that EVERYONE deserves EQUAL treatment and that EVERYONE deserves to have the same CHOICES as everyone else. If we DON’T have the same CHOICES and if we DON’T have the same rights, we are continuing to spread a message that some people are not as valuable as others and therefore we can beat them and throw them to the curb as was done to Kevin. Incidentally, the 5 people that perpetrated this crime were from the ages of 16 to 20. If we let our President make an amendment for THE FIRST TIME IN HISTORY that TAKES AWAY peoples rights as apposed to giving people their rights, then we are saying that what happened to Kevin is OK. And it’s not OK.Kevin you are a hero. You have been a personal hero to me since I first came out and started to go out to gay clubs. Having grown up in Yeshiva, Gay clubs were the first spaces I knew of where I felt like it was OK to be who I am. And there you always were, Kevin—showing us that we can be whoever we want to be and that despite our differences, we are still a community. Without you in the club world, without your art, without your music, without your performances, I don’t know if I would have ever felt like we really are one community. You have continued the legacy that the drag queens started during the Stonewall Rebellion—being the first ones on the front lines fighting for our civil and human rights. You have been a cherished and loved best friend to me for over 10 years and you were also one of my very first supporters and continue to be a great supporter of artists like myself who are not afraid to be who they are in a world that is clearly still run by hate. I know I speak for many when I say that we are grateful that you have been there for us and grateful that you are here still and that your sprit remains “So Alive” after something that might have taken down a weaker person. Thank you for not being afraid to speak out against the crime done to you even when they physically tried to steal your powerful voice away. Thank you once again for being proud of who you are no matter what the circumstance. We all wish you a very speedy recovery and we can’t wait to see you again and the joy that you bring to our lives. You are the rhythm and soul of this community. We love you, Kevin.Sincerely, ARI GOLD

I agree with Ru. Religions want to condemn us so much, that they want to deny that people like us do get persecuted. I remember last year, I found out that for every 1 teen in America, who commits suicide, there will be 7 gay teens, who will commit suicide. Religious people will just deny something like this, and continue to say that God doesn't like Homosexuals.

I went through the same thing with my parents. My dad accepted me, after I explained myself TRULY to him. I ended up literally telling my mom off, because she can be real stubborn when it comes to things. She eventually accepted me. So everything is fine right now.

Lke a Virgin

I am using Suave Sleek shampoo and conditioner, and I hate it! It dries out my hair, and it fades my red-colored hair. I decided that I will soon use some other shamps and conds in my hair. Here is my grooming plan, which will happen very soon...

Vive Pro Color Vive shampoo and conditioner for Color-Treated Dry Hair, as well as the intensive deep conditioenr treatment.

Secret Body Mist: Tropical Tango

L'Oreal Feria Multi-Faceted Shimmering Colour, Deep Burgundy Brown/Warmer 36

Sex!

Well I got an IPod Nano from my friend Brett. It came with his purchase of an IMac. I uploaded my Traci Lords album unto my Pod. I went walking today, and I'm happy. I felt chubby and fat today. Although I'm big, I'm not fat. But I have been trying to drop 20 pounds. I hope that I can lose 20 pounds by December?

My red hair is fading real badly. I plan to revive it with a demi-permanent hair dye. Most like something from Color Spa. One time, my estranged friend admitted to me, that he told my dad that he thought I was a prophet. He said that, because he knows how spiritual I am. He just meant that, I'm in turn with God. I love God, and I know he loves me as me: a Homosexual.

Robert is one hott bitch, but he's nutts- as in my dick in this throat- so I'm afraid of getting freaky with him. He might do something harmful to me, like pole me!

Starrpanty!

Well today I went to Sephora and I sadly found out that Jessica's Simpson's Dessert Treats has been discontinued. I'm not surprised that it wasn't that popular, but I did love her whipped body creams. Lollipop was my favorite.

Anyway, I was told by a worker that Walgreens will have a discount brand of Jessica's brand. Also, Sentiment has been officially been discontinued. I hate that! That was my favorite scent. Rockin' Rio, may have been canceled out as well! I didn't see in at Sephora's. They usually have the latest from Escada.

I tried out Gwen Stefani’s new fragrance and it smelled of a sweet bamboo scent. It's nice, but not my kind of scent! I also decided that the next shampoo and conditioner I used will be Vive Pro for Color-treated hair. It heals porous hair, and my hair is still quite damaged from having blonde hair, from January to April of this year.

Kitty Box

Kitty Box is my favorite Lil'Kim sex song!!! It get's me heated like a cat on the prowl! Anyway, I have just been cast as a Policeman in my college’s production of The Front Page. I am pretty sure that it's a small part, which I am glad about. I am in no mood to be a lead, especially since I will be hitting the books HARD! But not in the dirty way, I like to HIT IT!

One of my fantasies -like many boys- is masturbating my man's piece while it's in his underwear. Then after he comes, I pull back his briefs to see his cummy as stretchy and lemon dickeri!