Candy!!!

I know that being openly gay as a singer may cause some controversy in your life? But so what? I used to have a self-denying bisexual friend who told me in a serious way, "What are you going to do when you become a singer, and people treat you differently because you're gay!"

The truth was, she didn’t' want me to succeed in accomplishing my dreams. Also she's ashamed of being bi! She wants to make other bi and gay people miserable because she hates herself. We're not friends now because she is jealous that I had a man who loved me while her girlfriend dumped her. There is A LOT more to that story, then what I am writing.

I know that as a singer I MAY get some bad feedback for being gay, but is it worth it? YES!!! It's worth fighting for my right at a gay person to be happy as a singer in the music business! How can you be happy if you don’t' follow your heart and fight for who you are?!!! My ex-friend, who I will call Trina, doesn’t. My encouragement towards her has been a waste, since she is so ashamed of being who she is! It's sad, she lives a miserable life with her husband, where she fakes being happy! Whether it's by denial or utter naivety, people believe she is happy with her husband.

Robot!

I am starting to lose weight very slowly. But it's happening. I realize that I am rubenesque, because I am young and growing. My fat will leave when Nature is ready to take my fat away. Also I have grown and realize that some of my worries are no big deal... I just have to breathe and take time to think my trials over. God will helpe me when I need him.

I go to Christian college, and this school filters any sites that do with homosexuality. They allow sites that suppor anti-homosexuality! I am pissed that my friend Rio got married to a woman! He is gay, and is in love with me! I feel he got married to please hi parents. But secretly he has man he messes with! I know my semi-friend Peter get's it on with men, behind his wive's back.

In the Mormon religion, you get married in sacred Temples. Both of these men are madd stupid to think that they're marriage would be acceptable if they are fucking men?! Well more power to them! Atleast they still get manfucked every now and then?! They're both handsome but ugly looking.

I would sleep with them!!!

Well today is a good day. All is fine with me. I realize that through my challenges that I have to put my faith fully in Heavenly Father. If you go through hell, and yet you STILL are not getting the point of why God put you through that, then you really are DUMB in every way! God gives up trials, and if we find the meaning behind it, then we will be happier. But it's up to our own spirits to find that message.

That's my view and finding the message behind a trial. A Mormon male missionary serves two years in the field. I only served six. I was sent home because a doctor diagnosed me with depression. But I got a certificate, which stated that I did complete my mission. Anyway, even though I was depressed I still could have finished the whole two years. But I believe that I was sent home from another reason.

Shortly after I came home, I realized that being gay was more and more of a reality with every passing month. That's why I had to come home. God needed me for another mission- as a Gay man. He needed me to discover myself, and inspire other gay people to accept themselves as who they are.

It surprises me that some gay people go about life saying that they are advocates of being a Homosexual. Yet they would want to change if they had the chance. I think what they don’t realize, is that God created them in a special way.