Blackout baby!!!

Last night right after I posted No Greater, I had an incident. My whole neighborhood blacked out! Thank god I just published my post! It was eerie walking to my bedroom in pitch black. I had a Twilight Zone moment and it freaked me out!

Since my fly fryer lost electricity –I have a plug in one- I was attacked endlessly by misquotes! God, one wouldn’t leave me alone for hours. It kept buzzing near me! I woke up with blood and dead mosquitoes on my bed. De Ja Vu once again!

God my post yesterday, was real deep… I had a real bad week, spent weeping. Find you rainbows people, find your rainbows. I know it’s hard and you won’t always understand, but God does…

“When we ask 'Why me, God' it's really because we don't believe God. Our belief system opposes God, so we feel singled out and victimized.”

Well I got my haircut at the salon, since my blonde highlights were getting on my nerves to no end! I hate platinum blonde, but I love pale beige!

I’m keeping my hair its natural color for a LONG TIME since I missed it! Instead of color treated shampoo, I will use regular shampoo for a long time! I’ll go red one day!

There is no Greater!

There is no greater
No, no, no, no, no
There's no greater love I've seen in my life
No no greater, greater

Oh, no, no
Oh Lord I praise Your name
For all the things You've done, oh

There's no greater
No greater love I've found than You, Lord
And all the things You've done for me
I'm so glad I've come to see
There's no greater
No greater love I've found than You, Lord
Your legs hurt and walked away
That's why you want me to be brave
There's no greater love
I found no greater love
There's no greater love
There's no greater
There's no greater, I know

He can move any mountain
And He can calm any sea
He can ease any troubled mind
He can give victory
I come to know
I've come to know
I've come to know
My heavenly father

I shed tears as I read this. I have been going through so much hell in the past 3 weeks, and things have been bad!

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Why Me, God? - A Common Question
I'm sure you are asking, "Why me, God?" because something has happened that caused you to feel somehow singled out. Perhaps you feel that God must be punishing you for some reason. Why else would this be happening to you? Be assured. You are not alone. God has not abandoned you and He has not singled you out, no matter how you feel right now. Whatever you are going through, God's promise is that He will see you through and give you the strength and direction you need. God wants you to know that He understands how you feel, that He knows more about your situation than you do, and that He saw it coming before you did. Above all, He began to work on His resolution for you before you even knew to ask! The reality here is that God is for you. He is not against you.

Why Me, God? - An Erred Belief System
Our feelings of "Why me, God?" are real. They are based on real events, but our conclusions may not be accurate. While we don't want to minimize the pain you feel in any way, we do want to try to help you look more closely at why you feel singled out and whether or not you've arrived at a valid conclusion. The answers to why we conclude anything, even why we question God's intent or purpose in any event, can be found in our highly individualized network of beliefs.

We absorb our beliefs from our parents, teachers, life experiences, books, etc. Some of what we have come to believe may sound right, but in reality our views might be too narrowly defined or inaccurate. We have bought into many ideas and concepts that distort our right thinking and actually work against us. For example, we have learned untruths that cause us to live the role of the victim, either of circumstances or of our past. These erred beliefs cause us to cry out in pain, "Why me, Lord?"

God's answer is that we are not victims but victors. God has said that we can trust Him in everything and that every event in our lives should be counted as ALL joy (James 1:2). He has also told us that He will cause good to come out of every situation for those who love Him (Romans 8:28). When we ask "Why me, God" it's really because we don't believe God. Our belief system opposes God, so we feel singled out and victimized.

Most of us believe, at least on some level, that we need to understand everything. We just need to know why. When we don't, we may feel God has betrayed us in some way. In reality, it's not God who is confusing us or betraying us, it is our belief system. All those inconsistent, partially correct beliefs cause us to question God's fairness in what we are experiencing

My Dessert Trial –as a human- caused me to back up into a corner and grieve. But this really hit home with me! Right now I’m sterile and immovable. But I went through hell and I want to tell you all that Life is grand. I don't profess to learn the truth and preach it!

This is my own system of beliefs..! Yours can be different and that's fine!

There's no greater
No greater
No greater love I've found than You

Today I feel spiritual at all! God this holiday coming near, I will celebrate it alone... It's okay since I love life. I love strawberries! The best fruit! Sweet and tarty!
I love porn, but I can't find any I can truly approve on! I used to have this film called, The Flame. The reverse humping -skin slapping good time- that occurred from two gay older gentlemen, was enough for me to come all over myself!

I love amateur porn. High gloss, is okay! But I love skin slapping, boddy humping average men! Well I don't like overly glossy guys. But a clean guy is a must! I love Budget porn! Delish! I'll be dying my hair soon... I love horror films!

Naked guys!

I think that guys have a habit of being exhibitionists! They love getting naked for any reason at all! Every time I'm at a beach guys want to run around naked. They even wear transparent mesh shorts which fall showing their -oh so creamy smooth and sometimes haired- butt crack!
HOTT!
It's hot for me, since I love guys and all! Guys in sexy Speedos are always a must! I think that's why guys love walking around with their shirts off! It cools his body off and feels liberating! My boyfriend likes doing that, and I think he's very sexy!

Any gender should be able to exhibit themselves! This reminds me of Madonna’s Sex book! It really has nothing to do with what your mind suddenly thinks it's about! That's why the prologue states:

My name is Dita
I'll be your mistress tonight

It's about mind warp!
http://www.beautifulmadonna.com/sex.html

Trimspa Fuckers!!!

Now that Anna is dead, I know that my life needs some closure. Her tabloid Q&A and her life! I was not ready! But at the same time, may she rest in peace! Like my BODDY?!
Gosh, here’s another Shelly, you idiot diary entry from, XXX-Tina!

I was leaving a quick stop on the corner… Snack cakes in one pocket, insulin in the other. I walked on the pavement –with each step making a 5’9 on the richter scale- and allowed a building on the side of me to collapse!!! Hey fat ass, this boy yelled! I turned around and walked over to this kid, who had the nerve to call me, Shelly Kearns, a fat ass?!

Shelly: What did you say?
Boy: You dropped one of your snack cakes!
Shelly: That is beside the point! Do you know who I am?!
Boy: A lady with a high sugar level!
Shelly: I’m Shelly Kearns, the most downloaded woman in America!!!
Boy: Are you kidding me?!
Shelly: I single handedly control the minds of kids with my Live Daily propaganda!
Boy: Lady, you’re so fat, I bet it takes 3 modems for you to get through the internet?!
Shelly: You *bleep**bleep**bleep*mother *bleep*!

Just wait until I get my lawyer, then he’ll really be sorry!

Hey everybody! Well I had quite a day today. Jorge came over looking for Christina, to have sex with her. I told him she wasn’t here, but I was? He told me, he’d rather do it with the dog! But when I he looked out, it wasn’t there! So he came back crawling on his hands and knees, they always do!

And if you threw a party...

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly

Don't be afraid to fly
Don't be afraid to just fly
You, you've become a butterfly
Don't be afraid to just fly
Butterfly

God my Dessert Life Trial has taken another leap, and I hate it! Right now I’m pissed off, sad and sinned! Will this pain minus from my life? I know that God will take this despair from my life, but how long will the weight be?! It’s a crippling time for any individual. A friend once told me that, it’s for my own good, and that through my sins, I will learn about Truth…love, life, sex and Angels! Paradise is a better word!

Butterfly
Feel it fly
Fly away
Far far

Well I have no new makeup to brag about! I’m hoping for some cosmetics from Max Factor, Wet’n’Wild, as well as Cover Girl. Pray for me my angels cause I need it. Within my nerve and despair! We will prevail!!!!!

Fly away
Butterfly
Butterfly

Fly away
Butterfly
Butterfly

Fly away
Butterfly
Butterfly

Butterfly

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