My New Testament has become a boring class for me. It’s a 2 hour class with a 10minute break in between. I am trying to love positive with no stress in my mind. It's hard since habits are hard to break. But why should I be unhappy? My life is going great, and I'm accomplishing things. Actually I am improving my acting and singing abilities.

Yes it's true, my weight still hasn’t gone down to what I wish it would be, but I'll get there soon. In the meantime all I can do is grieve for my big body, which still isn't thin. Perhaps I'll go walking on Friday? Yeah I'll do that, but I'll need to rest in the afternoon for it! Yes I will have violet black hair from January to April of next year.

Then I will decolorize my hair, and then just grow it out. The in August, I will color my hair ash blonde. I hope that it will turn out to be a medium to light color.

Actually this is my plan for having ash blonde hair. As far as taking care of my hair. This plan can change in the future. Here it the plan:


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Well I feel good. I am dead tired, because I have shopped all day for needed stuff! I have lost much weight! You can tell, by how unchubby my neck looks. It's not easy. I'll tell you, I am going to color my hair violet black hair next year! Then I'm going to be a blonde at the later part of next year!!! IDK if I want light blonde or golden blonde hair?!

I think that I want a light golden blonde hair, that's not pale at all?! I want this color:

Now I can live with this color!!!! That's my goal to have that color!!!!

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Well I bought the DVD and soundtrack CD to Starrbooty! I saw the first film on the Funtone site!!!! The first SB movies were done in very low budget! But it features some of Ru’s best acting!!!