Only when I'm dancing can I feel this free
At night I lock the doors, where no one else can see
I'm tired of dancing here all by myself

Well I hope Loren is alright. Yesterday I bought a bottle of lotion called: Panrosa Rose lotion. I used to use Palmer’s and Naturally Right’s tangerine/melon body butter. But I got tired of it! 99-cent beauty care is worth is some of the time!

That’s where I got my lotion from! It smells great, and feels great! 99-cent lotion is the future for me! Also I bought this Colgate-like toothbrush made from a brand called Milan. It’s healing my gums…



I’m really into Blair Witch 1 & 2! I do believe that both films are reality!!! I didn’t watch Book of Shadows until 8 years after it was released. I’m glad I waited! I wasn’t ready for the video then. But I am now. I bought Blair Witch, when it was 1st released to VHS. Funny thing is I thought it was just a making of the film. I didn’t think it was the actually video, since I expected the film to be a motion picture????

The next morning as I watched it, my sister told me it was the movie!!! She seemed really proud of me too! I didn’t get the movie then. I believed that is was fake? Now that I’ve grown, I realize that it is REAL! Even though it was sad what happened to Heather, I do thank her. Her documentary proved that there is a Blair Witch out there!


^^^^Isn't that guy fucking HOTT?! I'd rim his ass! Even if it was musty smelling & sweaty!

Charmed was a viable way for Wicca to become mainstream!!! It’s a practice, and it’s time that people get through their HEAD that there is NO Satan and that Satan doesn’t control the Supernatural! Anyway, I’m a Blair Witch-ite!

The Gospels!!!!

“A queen is not a queen, because she is felt
But a queen is a queen, because failure has not stopped her”

A real diva doesn’t let the world get him/her down… She endures…not matter what! And they stand up glorious and say: Here is Me!!! I love my tranny women!

Jellissa Jaconi, just to name one of them…
Well I’m in love with Wong Foo! Yes I will buy Priscilla one day. The pink deluxe edition! I have an ex-Mormon friend named Loren. He finished writing about book about being secretly gay, while being Mormon and serving as a missionary!
Imma break it down like this! I’m very mainstream and pop! He’s very underground! He knows the gay scene from Under There! He’s officially my ticket to what’s hot in Gaydom! But we haven’t spoken for while, since that altercation with bitch ass Sina! Anyway I cooled our relationship down since, and he is finding the right time to get back to me!

He taught me to love Wong Foo, and accept it FULLY as a gay film!
Its disco-ey and funny! Anyway he four publishers rejected his manuscript, saying the he needed to touch it up. It’s still very rough endish!

Wave my hair!

As you all know already I went through hell from 2003 to 2007! My spirituality was robbed and I was part of the wrong religion! My natural cure to keep me in Nirvana was music. I’ll tell you this; Fundamentalists tell you that certain music is of the devil. So I no longer listened to Kim, Pure Moods, Madonna and any other of my other favorite artists!

Now that I’m no longer Mormon, I decided that in order to get back on track and evolve I need to grow again with my musical roots. After all, I’m going to be a singer one day! I’ve always been in love with New Age, Pop, Dance and Rap!

I’ve found Light in all of these genres. Real geniuses come very rarely and I’ve listened to their music. Here are a couple of the songs, which are helping me to get Nirvana back:

Jean-Michel Jarre - Oxygen IV Pigeons
Deep Forest - Sweet Lullaby

Music is a metaphysical healing for me.

I’m a Metaphysicalite! One page, which has helped me, is Crystal Links: (http://www.crystalinks.com/). I used to think Ellie was a quack, and devil! But NOW I have the utmost respect for her. I totally get the whole concepts of crystals and colors.



Before my Mormon transformation, I was just reaching into my Metaphysical aura. But then I became a Missionary, and was taught that anything mystical was of Satan. But I realize NOW, that without that mystery side of me, I will fall to diver’s ways…

It's unnatural!

1. Homosexuality is not natural, much like: eyeglasses, polyester, and birth control are not natural.
2. Heterosexual marriages are valid because they produce children: Infertile couples and old people cannot get legally married because the world needs more children.
3. Obviously gay parents will raise gay children- because straight parents only raise straight children.
4. Straight marriage will be less meaningful, since- Britney Spears's 55-hour just-for-fun marriage was meaningful.
5. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and- it hasn't changed at all: women are property, Blacks can't marry Whites, and divorce is illegal.
6. Gay marriage should be decided by the people, not the courts, because: the majority-elected legislatures, not courts, have historically protected the rights of minorities.
7. Gay marriage is not supported by religion: In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are always imposed on the entire country. That's why we only have one religion in America.
8. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that: hanging around tall people makes you tall.
9. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because: a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage license.
10. Children can never succeed without both male and female role models at home: That's why single parents are forbidden to raise children.
11. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and: we could never adapt to new social norms because we haven't adapted to cars or longer lifespans.
12. Civil unions, providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name are better, because: a "separate but equal" institution is always constitutional. Separate schools for African-Americans worked just as well as separate marriages will for gays & lesbians.

NO ONE is a master of you, except for yourself!

Courage

Courage, your word
Didn't come, it doesn't matter
Oh courage, my word
Didn't come, it doesn't matter
Courage, it couldn't come at a worse time

Well I’m getting in touch with the Gospels, and it helps to uplift me! It teaches me that I’m strong willed and that I’m fabulous! I realized that Kim has been through so much drama and yet she still stands in Victory!

Fuck Fauxy
Pussy ass Mafia
Her bitch ass beating boyfriend
Biggie cheating and marrying Faith
So on…


She’s a survivor! Do you how long it has been since I really enjoyed her Gospels?! I was once a Mormon and a Missionary. I though that it would make me happy? It didn’t… Instead He allowed me to realize after so long, that I truly was who I am now. I will always be this way…the ignorance of Fundamentalist Christianity may hurt my people… But eventually the Pure and Loving God will restore peace for Her gay children!!

Anyway, its spring and the Faerie’s allow me to realize that spring is a time of rejuvenation!


Fairy glitter sprinkles me dreams at night to let my unconscious know that I’m healing from my past scars from 2006 to 2007. I’ve been through so much hell and I held on to Her. She loves me…Her safety and her revelation to me, and caused me to heal and grow and mature with every day…passes.

Starlight..!

I was randomly watching the Young and the Restless, and Brett is still a hott as hell fuck. He's got a hot firm ass... He's also got a sexy tongue, I'd like to lick! I used to do gay porn and nude modeling back in the day!

Well I’m getting back in to the Gospel of Lil’Kim. Lately I’ve admired her music again, and I feel that I need that kind of advisory in my life. I have been really down lately, and it’s really hasn’t been funny. Notorious K.I.M. and Naked Truth are my albums. She’s a Prophetess, it seems like so many things she raps about, has come true.

Foxy is a coked out has been. Junior M.A.F.I.A. is now exposed as wanksta’s and pussies. Kim is Officially Miss. G.O.A.T. Well I’ll tell you why these two albums have touched me. They define me in so many ways, with my real-life problems.




“You ain't a star
And your record company know that
How you make all this money you just fart and blow it?”

Your fake ass ain’t fooling nobody. Who still stupid, ugly and bi!

“Everywhere I go red carpet
Gave the keys to valet tell 'em to park it
Then I jumps out the Azure, a Lil' Kim aura
Girls making faces like Ace Ventura”

You can’t handle that I’m glamorous and you’re trash.

“And girl, don't you hate when bitches be wit the friends
Dancin all wild
Bumpin you again and again
Yea I know That some real punk shit
Fuck that I ain't tryna hear that drunk shit
Bitches like that get stomped out
You know the rules, beat a bitch till she conk out”

Talking shit bitches, yet you’re quick to get fucked up and shut up!




“I'm "Bella" to that death and, don't ask why
Cause the "Mafia" is P-U-S-S-Y”

To busy calling me a fag, but you suckin’ dick and too pussy to be who you are!

“Crooklyn style, that's how we do it
Ill gangsters and ain't got to prove it”

Real is real, and I see you as a fake ass BITCH!!!!

“Man I FOUGHT tooth and NAIL to keep them PUNKS out of JAIL
But hoes wanna go to COURT 'til I pay them for they NAILS
Who you tryin to be? Man it couldn't be me
My man spent guap and bought me my Continental T
You spent your advance on your Continental T
I know you sick when you clean your RIMS you still see a Bee
And we see you a LIAR, tryin to DENY HER
Jackie O. proved you FAR from a FIGHTER
Comin at ME bitch you playin with FIRE”

Who the fuck you do you think you are, burying me when the truth ALWAYS comes out?!!! Truth is, you’re an evil dyke!

The wild life

This is the wild life
It's the wild life
Wild life
This is the wild life
No stone left unturned
Jump in the fire you're gonna get burned
You might lose your way
When you come out to play
The wild life
http://youtube.com/watch?v=SmR03VSjYhQ

I’m fine with people going along with the God is Dead movement! Why? Because religion has fucked up Godden beliefs, so that we don’t know what to believe. Fundamentalist Religion uses guilt and fear to keep people in their congregations… Jesus taught about love and acceptance, he never taught that unless you follow this or that religion that you will go to hell. EVERY religion does that.

Even Mormonism does that. They neutralize it by saying that only straight married couples will inherit the highest level of the Celestial Kingdom. If you don’t meet the requirements, then you are sent to a lesser degree of glory. Um…WHAT HEAVEN bans you to a lesser glory?! How could you even be happy under a lesser glory?!

I think that there is Truth out there, but you have to find it for yourself. You won’t find it in any religion. Religions have some truth, but only God knows ALL truth. Don’t believe any church which claims to be the whole and utter truth. You have a right to explore.

I’m Gnostic, but I’m not a practicing Gnostic. Meaning: I don’t go to church, join prayer circles or even join a newsletter. I explore life by taking a little here and there, as I see it as right. The only true Gnostic faith I believe is the most Essenic (ancient Jewish Gnostic) is Novus Spiritus:



Besides that MAN ARE HOTT!!!