Pagan

Paganism is compared to many aspects. Greeks and Romans compare to Azna. Worldwide it has endless meanings. In my view, Paganism is the channeling of spiritual energy from the land. I believe that all living things have a stamina, which will turn into something else when it goes away. Not all humans have souls...some will die and evaporate or turn into something else, like dust or a planet???

I love incense, and nature scented candles. I'm not opposed to lab made products. Holistic products can attract swarms and pests...since they contain edible herbs and so forth... I love scents like:

Bergamot
Lavender
Lemon
Vanilla
Berry
Mirth
Tangerine
etc.

The feed of Soul

After reading the blogs from my idols, I have come to realize that the Universe is telling me to chill! I just read Jason Ridges blog, and he is working on his well being! God! I have to work on mine! Attending college has been hard! Especially being openly gay, and having to work twice as hard to get good grades. I am hauntingly discriminated for who I am, because the truth will always set you free!

At my school, there a very few people who are out like I am! The rest, will diss gays anytime! Shit happens, and you don't have to clean it up! The truth is, I've been feeding myself earth knowledge, and virtually spending no time on my soul. I have to work on that! My online pics haven't been updated on eons, and I feel like I'm going to have a breakdown. In the next two weeks, I have to make an important decision. Am I going to take some pics of myself soon. Instead of wearing makeup, I will wear tinted moisturizer!

I need to relax my hair as well!

My Life in Porn: The Bobby Blake Story

I have to confess, that I don't like Blake! The whole point of gays finding God, is that they realize that God isn't confined by chapels and religion, regardless of what miracles, which they may witness. Yet the man HAD to go back to his hometown church, to find himself?! I think he's a fake, who happens to be just another closet-cased Fundamentalist, who hates what God created. A Homosexual. I'm more than happy, that Flex Deon Blake has moved on.

Who needs this man?! Another lost soul... There is no hell, and no guilt. Just lies. This is why gays should never be afraid to die. Why? Because a religion teaches about a vengeful jealous God, who sends sinners to hell? God is All-Loving, so don't worry about it. Sin is misery, deception, lies and hate. Not being who you are.

It's almost like Bobby is saying that being gay is wrong, and that God is just putting him through it, for a lesson. In other words, he won't be gay when he dies. He even writes about his gay brothers and their "struggle"! I feel sorry for him!

I can see why the presence of Roman Heart, Jason Ridge, Erik Rhodes, Jason Crew and many other gay porn stars are needed in the limelight right now. Some things are slowly trying to oppose us, and stop what Heavenly Father has made: Beautiful Homosexual Males. Forever... We are Angels!!! Endure the pain and maddness of the world, so that we can evolve. I love you!

Brown!

Well my hair is brown-red right now, and I just got my L'oreal Colorist Collection (Walnut) Shampoo! Well the snow has melted in my home town and I think that is cool. Summer is a lot of fun in my hometown! The town I’m in, is kind of depressing..! This town has no known stores! Basically, I feel like I’m in the Twilight Zone!

Final exams are going great!

To be honest, I NEVER colored my hair brown! I have always gone for red or blonde. I was brown once, since I wanted to cover my burgundy hair! But I only did that once! I never touched up the color! But that era was depressing, since my hubbie was far away in another country! So that always brings back bitter memories!

My friend Mark, wants me to post my Dream on my blog! The dream explains my Dessert Life Period!

I will dye my hair violet-black soon. It would help if there were beauty supply stores nearby, but there isn’t! I’ll check online and see? Nothing I found nothing! I will have to spend much more for dye online!

You dug your own grave!!!

Well it is nearly the end half of 2009, and I can’t believe it! A lot has happened in my life, and I have grown so much. My Dessert Life Period has evolved to great heights. I have grown so that I’m not so afraid of dumb things, which stood in my path like before!

To be honest, fighting for gay rights in my town has been tough. I’m the only one, who fights for us, and I get no support in return. I’m only human, and I refuse to clean up after closet cases who won’t join me! The nerve of these people to ask for my best wishes in their hetero marriages, when they are miserable living in the closet. Fuck that!

I don’t think so! Everything is all up to me, and I get fed up with it! What are these closet cases going to do, when I leave this town?! I truly wish they would wake the fuck up, and I pray about that! I’m sick of it! To be honest, if I EVER have to witness one of my gay friends –under religious pressures- choosing to go back into the closet ever again, then I may just faint and never wake up!

What are they so afraid of?! Personally, I have a go to hell attitude. What I do with my life, is no one’s concern! If you are one of the closet cases, then I TRULY DON’T FEEL SORRY FOR YOU!!! You get what you settle for in life, and you dig your own grave everyday! You know that, as well as I do!

I DO NOT FEEL SORR FOR YOU! YOU DUG YOUR OWN GRAVE!!!!

Finals

Well it is almost finals week for me. This means, spending day and night studying for that A! I will begin that tomorrow. I have much to do tomorrow. It is pouring here at my school. I hate rain, since where I’m staying is drenched in dirt!

I may watch Jurassic Park 3 today. It was a load of fun to watch in the theater! I believe I will get an A for sure?! If not, a C!

Let them go 2

Some of your friends may be your relatives. To become friends with you again, they will use the “because we are related” excuses! I have learned by now that anyone can hate you, even your so-called genetic/blood relatives. You see, I have some relatives which are Polynesian –not that I’m part of that group- and in that culture, they TOTALLY believe in the saying: Blood is thicker than water! Family is everything and some of these people –especially if they’re religious freaks- will tell about their whole line of ancestry, even though it’s filled with myths and lies!

It’s a myth to think that “blood is thicker than water”, because anyone is obligated to hate you! Blood or not, someone can hate you, so that myth falls in the well! Blood is not thicker than water!