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I never realized how much Mommie Dearest, has influenced popular cinema? I am watching it now, and it kills me just how, this film is copied into so many dramas- in order to give it camp appeal!

I think it’s odd, that people take this movie so seriously! It’s funny! BTW: What is normal. Functionalist's base their studies on an idealist culture...which BTW doesn’t exist. The whole world is based on ideals, which BTW are made up. What is a boy, girl, man, woman? What is normal? Be genuine people. Labels are labels.

Scott Douglas -in the movie, Our Mother's Murder- is totally based upon Joan's persona from Mommie Dearest. This is just one example, of how this film has helped in the camp of many films...

I think that the real Joan lived a very victimized life. In the end, she is the hero of MD. She is medicated and possible a criminal on the run? Overall, I think she was a great actor.

Have fun...

Yes I think that Hillary should’ve won the election, but everytime a new Pres. is chosen, it’s always predetermine! I really couldn’t doubt that Obama was going to win? CNN totally snubbed Clinton and made an ass out of their own network, by only presenting the public with showings of Obama and McCain.

McCain is a right-winger, not to mention he supported Prop. 8. I’m fine with Obama being Pres., but I HATE the people keep referring to him, as the 1st Black President. That’s the last thing we need right now. He supports gay rights, and I love that!

I’m glad that Obama won over McCain. I can't believe that, this guy had the nerve to STILL get into the White House, by trying to be Vice Pres.? I hope he will realize, that it’s OVER fro him!!! Anyway, Spirit Animals are all that! Here are mine:

Hawk Messenger, intuition, victory, healing, nobility, recollection, cleansing, visionary power, and guardianship

Horse Freedom, stamina, mobility, the land, travel, power, and freedom.

Owl Deception, clairvoyance, insight, messenger.

Lion wisdom and power. the abilities of heart-centered leadership.

Raven the messenger, make changes in the way you perceive things and gives you the ability to see what has to be changed.

Unicorn the ability to make your dreams come true.

Bouts!

I can understand why boys at young ages, go through the underwear staining era? Some boys feel that bowel movements are horrid and they hold it in sometimes. Basically many boys have bouts with bowels. Why? Because at a young age, they realize that intimacy can be done in the anal area, once they become consenting adults.

As a boy I didn't like going myself. Then as a teen, it was an intrigue to do the act. Now, as a mature man, I realize that all my bouts, were just about me growing up and learning about my persona.

Foward!

Letting negativity get to you, can be very bad. Crippling! The best thing you can do is learn your lesson, and then move on! When I finish college, I will move on and find work. My boy Dan thinks, I will be helping people for a living. That sounds GREAT!

I’ll work for any charity or organization! I have a student loan to pay off, and a name to change! Not to mention, I will pursue my dreams of stardom! I’m losing weight, and my goal will be pleasing!

God, life will pass you by if you don’t live your dreams. After a good meal, I think I will be ready to move on! My clothes are coming in, and I may just dye my hair in a couple days! I have books to buy, and lot’s to look forward to! I may buy Rupaul's new album, if I can get it used. And maybe I'll buy Divine's greatest hits!!!

I wanna read this book!

Since a new college semester is going to happen soon, I decided to get into reading much more. Even if it meant, reading for fun:

The Path Of The Green Man: Gay Men, Wicca and Living a Magical Life
I am so looking forward to reading this book!!! I just need to find a copy of it, and Amazon can provide for that! Yeah. I already read the 1st chapter on Google Books. I think this book will help in my self-growth. I hope to read more book from gay authors?
http://books.google.com/books?id=fcYSsnfOHbEC&dq=The+Path+Of+The+Green+Man:+Gay+Men,+Wicca+and+Living+a+Magical+Life&printsec=frontcover&source=bl&ots=6fQepUupVi&sig=8bOTA1efTAg3KQLKKKkJoyAMzZM&hl=en&ei=1Z9ISqLTEI-eswO-0f2QAQ&sa=X&oi=book_result&ct=result&resnum=3

The man on the cover. He's beautiful.

Life is grand 2

In the process of my recovery, I have realized that not all things are what they seem… Be careful of liars, because they will appear as friends –who do favors for you- and then they will backstab you.

I have had quite a bitchy past few years, and I have come a long way through fighting evil, and controversy. You have got to be who you are, if you want to be happy. I’ll make this very brief:

May to August 08 – I went through a hellish summer college break. I dealt with idiocy and prejudice from family members. I don’t trust them.

August to December 08 – I stopped talking to them. I was going to make this permanent, but I needed money. Basically I left my church, and my parents tried to force back into the congregation.

January 09 – I stand as who I am!!! I reunited with them, and any perception they have of me, is not my concern.

But there is so much hate, which I have gotten from all past experiences. It has confined me. Shelled me in, so that I am currently struggling to break free. I am a free person, but I know the struggle of ignorance. I am trying to break free from all human evil, which I call ignorance….

My breaking process is painful, since I’ve had to deal with so many truths about myself. None of us are normal, and we all have strange sides to ourselves. Be careful of false people, for they will use this to their advantage. Everyone is not alike.

There are no opposites, but only right and wrong. Light and darkness are just words. I love the dark; it’s beautiful for me..!

Brain change...

This blog is inspired by a celebrity that revealed his original persona.
Check out link here:

http://erikrhodes.blogspot.com/2008/03/taking-look-from-step-back.html

In my view, no one can tell you who you are. You have to discover that? Lately I have been trying to keep positive and happy. I just finished a good 3 solid semesters, of college and I am brain drained! I’m not happy with my name. 1st off, I can’t pronounce it w/o feeling embarrassed. 2nd, it doesn’t make any sense, its B.S. to me! I want a name which defines me! My current name doesn’t!

I think that any American should change their name if they want to. My whole purpose of a name change, is to find inner peace and get closer to the real me! I am not my ethnicity, and I hate when people ask me about it. Why would I make friends with every French person, because I’m French also?! I think ethnic people take this way too damn seriously!

In my view, Asians and Pacific Islanders blame whites for prejudice, but they won’t admit to their own! They especially have a problem with Americans, which are Asian/Pacific Islander. Why? Because these people are from a free country, and exist in a Western type culture. America is for the free, and if you love being an American than more power to you! But to most ethnics, it will always be a white man’s land.

Sadly, this philosophy turns into hate for whites, Westerners, Caucasians and Americans everywhere. All Americans are of the same nationality. This runs into a problem for me too. My name means several things in many ethnic cultures. I hate when people ask me if I’m Pacific Islander or Hindu? Why? Because of a last name, or they want to see me as something I’m not.

I’m not brown skinned, I’m beige and that isn’t even brown in the slightest. It’s pastel.

At college this person once asked me flat is out if I was Tongan or Samoan? She said it was because; many Polynesians were trying to figure out if I was? 1st off bitch, thanks for giving me two options to pick from!!! What hinted that I was even a Polynesian in the 1st place? This bitch, just confirmed to me, that some people only care about ethnicity and not that a person is a human being.

I’m Caucasian with a strange name. I can’t wait to get my name changed! This name change will help define me more as my own person. I am not this current name…