Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Hi!

Count Duckula seems to have taken over my life?! Strange! I remember this cartoon from Nick Afternoons on Sundays!

I am feeling very sick today! I will sleep in tonight! Soon I will begin to dye my hair again! Isn’t Vicks great?! I love it! It’s pure black outside tonight! That is very SCARY! It’s a sign of change! Maybe bad, maybe good?! Mostly bad?!

I don’t know about your location, but many native settlers of America, believe that a black night is a horrid sign of change! It can affect your mind while you sleep, especially if you run into the wrong individual, who happens to not like you?!

I have a bad feeling about this night! If you ever have a bad feeling about black nights, then pray to the Lord! These nights are no accident!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Eyes without a Face...


I'm all out of hope
One more battle brave could bring a fall
When I'm far from home
Don't call me on the phone
To tell me you're alone
It's easy to deceive
It's easy to tease
But hard to get release

Hi everyone! Night is my time! I love Nature. Galaxy I mean! There are so many beautiful things in space!

Friday, January 16, 2009

Natures

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Aren’t these pics of nature great?!!! I love the 2nd one! I would love to swim in the purple of that giant river?! I wanna live near a body of water, when I get my dream house. I was thinking of either living on the eastcoast –Puritan town- or in California!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Blissed..!

Sometimes I wonder what’s the point of promoting a healthy gay lifestyle, when so many gays hate themselves?! There isn’t THAT MUCH unity within our society. Example! I used to be part of a gay board, and we all know which straight guy celebs are –in actuality- gay men!

I mentioned one hot guy and I had like five people pouncing on me! If someone is gay, then why shouldn’t we welcome them?! I was later banned from the board, for reporting harassment from a moderator! To be honest, I just think the board was very homophobic –sad since it was meant for gay men- and I just happened to be very proud of myself!

The world adores gay romances. My best advice to any gay man is this: Don’t spend your life encouraging other guys to come out! It’s not going to happen that well! Instead ENCOURAGE YOURSELF…to be happy with a man, a job and a Life!!! You have only ONE Life, and you should live it!

I think God created for every gay man, a match to compliment him. Mine is still out there, and I know he will come to me –NO MATTER WHAT- when God sees fit! One more important thing! Love God, and let anything you can’t understand become his problem! He will answer you correctly –no matter what- at any time!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

CRY!

Boy these holidays of this year, have left me very thoughtful! Well I made up with my parents, after a monthly feud! God it’s good to be back with them! God bless anyone out there who searches for the truth. Don’t settle just for one…whatever, you know what I mean! I was at Barnes N Noble, yesterday sipping on a mocha/raspberry frappy!
I hate that stuff, but I needed a pick me up!

I love Italian sodas. Well my friend from old, has returned to town. He’s sort of bonkers now! He’s paler than a ghost, and seems more lost than ever. I’m scared for him, what if he is in danger?! Funny, he came off as a nice young man, when I first met him?! He still is, but he looks like he just fell of a freight train! I feel sorry for him, I valued him so greatly!

He’s gay, and I pray his family didn’t commit him to a “straight-again palace”?!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Blackout baby!!!

Last night right after I posted No Greater, I had an incident. My whole neighborhood blacked out! Thank god I just published my post! It was eerie walking to my bedroom in pitch black. I had a Twilight Zone moment and it freaked me out!

Since my fly fryer lost electricity –I have a plug in one- I was attacked endlessly by misquotes! God, one wouldn’t leave me alone for hours. It kept buzzing near me! I woke up with blood and dead mosquitoes on my bed. De Ja Vu once again!

God my post yesterday, was real deep… I had a real bad week, spent weeping. Find you rainbows people, find your rainbows. I know it’s hard and you won’t always understand, but God does…

“When we ask 'Why me, God' it's really because we don't believe God. Our belief system opposes God, so we feel singled out and victimized.”

Well I got my haircut at the salon, since my blonde highlights were getting on my nerves to no end! I hate platinum blonde, but I love pale beige!

I’m keeping my hair its natural color for a LONG TIME since I missed it! Instead of color treated shampoo, I will use regular shampoo for a long time! I’ll go red one day!

Friday, December 26, 2008

There is no Greater!

There is no greater
No, no, no, no, no
There's no greater love I've seen in my life
No no greater, greater

Oh, no, no
Oh Lord I praise Your name
For all the things You've done, oh

There's no greater
No greater love I've found than You, Lord
And all the things You've done for me
I'm so glad I've come to see
There's no greater
No greater love I've found than You, Lord
Your legs hurt and walked away
That's why you want me to be brave
There's no greater love
I found no greater love
There's no greater love
There's no greater
There's no greater, I know

He can move any mountain
And He can calm any sea
He can ease any troubled mind
He can give victory
I come to know
I've come to know
I've come to know
My heavenly father

I shed tears as I read this. I have been going through so much hell in the past 3 weeks, and things have been bad!

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Why Me, God? - A Common Question
I'm sure you are asking, "Why me, God?" because something has happened that caused you to feel somehow singled out. Perhaps you feel that God must be punishing you for some reason. Why else would this be happening to you? Be assured. You are not alone. God has not abandoned you and He has not singled you out, no matter how you feel right now. Whatever you are going through, God's promise is that He will see you through and give you the strength and direction you need. God wants you to know that He understands how you feel, that He knows more about your situation than you do, and that He saw it coming before you did. Above all, He began to work on His resolution for you before you even knew to ask! The reality here is that God is for you. He is not against you.

Why Me, God? - An Erred Belief System
Our feelings of "Why me, God?" are real. They are based on real events, but our conclusions may not be accurate. While we don't want to minimize the pain you feel in any way, we do want to try to help you look more closely at why you feel singled out and whether or not you've arrived at a valid conclusion. The answers to why we conclude anything, even why we question God's intent or purpose in any event, can be found in our highly individualized network of beliefs.

We absorb our beliefs from our parents, teachers, life experiences, books, etc. Some of what we have come to believe may sound right, but in reality our views might be too narrowly defined or inaccurate. We have bought into many ideas and concepts that distort our right thinking and actually work against us. For example, we have learned untruths that cause us to live the role of the victim, either of circumstances or of our past. These erred beliefs cause us to cry out in pain, "Why me, Lord?"

God's answer is that we are not victims but victors. God has said that we can trust Him in everything and that every event in our lives should be counted as ALL joy (James 1:2). He has also told us that He will cause good to come out of every situation for those who love Him (Romans 8:28). When we ask "Why me, God" it's really because we don't believe God. Our belief system opposes God, so we feel singled out and victimized.

Most of us believe, at least on some level, that we need to understand everything. We just need to know why. When we don't, we may feel God has betrayed us in some way. In reality, it's not God who is confusing us or betraying us, it is our belief system. All those inconsistent, partially correct beliefs cause us to question God's fairness in what we are experiencing

My Dessert Trial –as a human- caused me to back up into a corner and grieve. But this really hit home with me! Right now I’m sterile and immovable. But I went through hell and I want to tell you all that Life is grand. I don't profess to learn the truth and preach it!

This is my own system of beliefs..! Yours can be different and that's fine!


There's no greater
No greater

No greater love I've found than You