Get a life, and stop hating on white people!

I've been really down lately. I realized that hate is not the answer! The holidays bring about the hatred and truth of normal people! They live a fib, and the holidays expose them! I am currently residing in a conservative town, and I can sense the dread of prejudice of post-Thanksgiving!

A white man's holiday, is the only way they choose to see it as! The college feast was gross! I got sick off the food, and it wasn't even traditional! It was revamped crap, that was catered towards minorities- in live in Hawaii! The stuffing was just croutons in oil, and the gravy was lard!

I got the runs from it! My hair right now it dark ashe brown! I am currently on Dessert Life burnout! Too much karma, and it hurts! A man wants me to fuck him, and he is positive! I will only have sex with him, if I get to wear a condom?!

Lube it inside and out and ram it into that pussy!

Yummy fruit!

Monday night
Tuesday night
Friday night
Every night
Why?
Cause I can

New York and Japan
With the stop up in Milan
After all
I'm a man

I'll get to know your family
Get your friends to fall in love with me
Just happens all so easily
Easily

I'll have you thinking I'm the one
You play your part I play along
We can have a lot of fun
Until I'm done

Weeelll I am not done with college life. It has gotten easier since I have put God first, which is something I NEVER did!
It was always moi!

Now it’s Him and moi! Well I am currently using Cherry Lipsmacker at my home! I’ve always used Chapstick, but I switched! Why? Because petroleum tastes gross…unless it’s used in other ways???? But that fantasy will come true later on!
Here is a list of all the Smacker’s I’ve used:

Dr. Pepper
Cherry 7 up
Root Beer
Berry Peach
Bubble Gum
Cookie Dough
Cotton Candy
Strawberry
Watermelon
Aztec Punch
Strawberry Banana
Mango Melon
Royal Berry Punch
Watermelon Cherry
Slammin' Strawberry Kiwi
Strawberry
Banana Berry
Strawberry Watermelon
Mango Peach
Cherry

It's no sweat
Get the check
Show respect
Don't forget you'll pay me later
That's the plan

Why?

My best friend told me that my hair color should reflect my soul. When I have pale blonde hair, I have fuller hair! My hair is dark blonde, and it's real flat! It's not healthy! It's damaged and the color is real rusty!

I might as well go for burgundy?! White males are hated by minorities for being beautiful! I experience this at my college in Hawaii. I can't be too blonde or radiant with my hair color! It's discrimination.

I hate myself, since my image is failing! I look like hell!

The darker side of CNN

I can't sleep without expressing this! This evening I was watching CNN and I nearly died inside watching that Jim Jones story! In South America he opened his business, and there was nothing but black people in the congregation!!! DAMN LMAO! Nothing but black people on that plane from the U.S. to South America!

I was so embarrassed and enraged at CNN for making fools out of minorities once AGAIN! Always trying to cover the real story! And no I don't buy that black lady's story of being a victim at that Church!

DAMN I can't stop laughing out of embarrassment!

Too much kiddo!

I was unhappy with the midterm grade I got from my Finance class. I was devastated and literally in tears, within my head. I hated it! I felt like, I was in a nightmare! I felt like I was never going to graduate, and become a loser of society with no prospects. I was ready to study my ass off triple time!

But NOW… I realize, that the threat of failure was actually a Gift… The Universe was telling me to, calm down and claim what is mine..? This whole semester, all I could think about was being a star and kicking ass, my own way!!! However…that wasn’t the Lord’s way..!

He wanted me to be happy, and realize that I am human, and the he controls everything! I can only pray for a miracle, that I will pass this class and move on. I got to remember, that politics play a lot into, what is used to create exams. My teacher didn’t write the exam, so why should I be mad at him???

He said that regardless of my exam grades, that I’m dong TERRIFIC! I hope so! I believe him! Oh well..! I will try again, and do my best. All I need is a passing grade. I shall pray for a miracle..?

Update!

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Never Go Home Again

I'll never go home again
I'll never go home again
I'll never go home again

What is important for me to know about myself:

Dark blonde
American
Spiritual

Well I just woke up from a horrid sleep 4 hours ago. I feel good. God has been taking away a lot of my pain. My weight lost, is doing great. I’m nocturnal, which implies that I’m Post-Meridian.

My whole soul celebrates the night. I hope, that I can find a wonderful night job, after I have finished college?

I love life…it sucks at times, but my God is there to feed me. Most people wouldn’t survive at night, but I will. I want to live in night switch.

Sleep in the day, live by the night...

Believe in yourself people. I know it’s hard, when guilt and power gets you down. But you’ll make it. I know I will…

There's a home for you here

Where love is unconditional

Go to the light, never say never