Let friends go, when they are not good. Let people criticize you, and judge you. I broke up with my friends long ago. Back in 2007. Last year, they tried to reconcile with me..! I realize, that once friends turn out to be bad, then you should just move on!
Bad friends will only try to hang with you, only when they want something. They will use bribes. Let them go, and let their hate go. Their hate is so strong, that they only destroy themselves!!! That is their real enemy, which they will never conquer!
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Sunshine
Reinventing me hasn’t been easy lately. I’ve had to deal with trials in the last year, which has crippled me! Hateful/racist relatives, dark witchcraft and homphobism! I left my church 2 years ago. It caused me to distance myself from my parents from August to December of 2008.
The truth be told, they just didn’t understand that I have my own beliefs about God! I believe that God is all love, and doesn’t send people to hell! I believe there is a literal heaven, but you don’t have to go there, once you die!
These trials set me back, so that I was blinded. I forgot my real mission in life. Actually I lost my hope of my legacy…to my gays! I stopped dying my hair –which left me heavily and emotionally depressed- and just gave up on life. I forgot how bright life was! The only thing I did to my hair was relax it!
The truth be told, not everyone believes in God! I have to remember that! People have no problem living lies in their life! I love God. In January I began to pick up the pieces. I lost my faith in God! Why would a loving God cause so much pain in my life?! I now realize that my trials and challenges may pain me, but that they only draw me closer to the Lord!
But once again I will pick myself up and continue in my legacy! Bless my People, and they will prevail and overcome any trials and challenges, which come into their Life. We…are Angels..!
The truth be told, they just didn’t understand that I have my own beliefs about God! I believe that God is all love, and doesn’t send people to hell! I believe there is a literal heaven, but you don’t have to go there, once you die!
These trials set me back, so that I was blinded. I forgot my real mission in life. Actually I lost my hope of my legacy…to my gays! I stopped dying my hair –which left me heavily and emotionally depressed- and just gave up on life. I forgot how bright life was! The only thing I did to my hair was relax it!
The truth be told, not everyone believes in God! I have to remember that! People have no problem living lies in their life! I love God. In January I began to pick up the pieces. I lost my faith in God! Why would a loving God cause so much pain in my life?! I now realize that my trials and challenges may pain me, but that they only draw me closer to the Lord!
But once again I will pick myself up and continue in my legacy! Bless my People, and they will prevail and overcome any trials and challenges, which come into their Life. We…are Angels..!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
Cold..!
I love cherries, and this wallpaper!
I have a sore throat today, and I could use some hard candy! But instead I'll just drink some lemonade! I love Country Time, better than Kool-Aid though! But KA cherry rules! My hair is pale blonde and I luvs it!
But during the summer, I'll have red hair. I'm still undecided on what color red I'll pick?! I refuse to go for an orange-reddish color! I want real-red or violet red!
The products I chose are:
Color Vive Pro-
Tresemme Colorthrive-
Redken treatment-
Nice N' Easy-
Loreal Colorist Cherry Bark-
I have a sore throat today, and I could use some hard candy! But instead I'll just drink some lemonade! I love Country Time, better than Kool-Aid though! But KA cherry rules! My hair is pale blonde and I luvs it!But during the summer, I'll have red hair. I'm still undecided on what color red I'll pick?! I refuse to go for an orange-reddish color! I want real-red or violet red!
The products I chose are:
Color Vive Pro-
Tresemme Colorthrive-
Redken treatment-
Nice N' Easy-
Loreal Colorist Cherry Bark-
Monday, March 16, 2009
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Life is grand…
I spent all of last night and this morning crying. I wasn’t counting my many blessings! Last night I bleach the hell out of my hair for last time. I had an allergic reaction to the dye, and my scalp is a little stung. Somehow this fact woke me up to how blessed I am.
I dyed my hair all this time, to please men. But I realize that men love me the way I am. That sting woke me up bad! No longer was I going to hurt my skin! My skin is just fine though. You see, I have always tried to enhance my image, because I wanted men’s approval. I realize that I can end that notion..!
It’s a blessing to know that I’m every man’s Dream… I’m not thin or fat. But I want to be slimmer. I’m naturally rubenesque! I will always be a little chubby and I’m happy with that! This helps me to realize just how important my bf is to me! We will be together after two years? Only God can say…
We met 4 years ago. It was love at first site. He was tall, robust and overweight, but slim. I was large. We both thought we couldn’t have each other unless we lost weight. He became anorexic, and I nearly OD’d on diet pills. I quit, but not him! After some time, he came to his senses! I love him big and natural. Just like how he likes me!
I don’t have to be stick thin to please his senses. He loves me just as I am, and I was WAY bigger when we 1st met! Thanks! It was confirmed to me this past Sunday that Prop. 8 won! I was saddened, and I felt like giving up the cause! I was in a real bad place! But last night, after talking to God, I can understand why we gay men are so hated?!
We are Angels…literally angels. We are makers of our own Destiny, that the Universe did not –and never will- grant straight people. God created us different to be unique and save this world. We’re not feminine or masculine energy. We are real humans who change anything we touch for the good!
Sadly we are sometimes used to enhance The Straight Lifestyle. But yet we still fight for our own liberty. America will be a place for us One Day, to celebrate. Remember, this nation is still new, and history doesn’t tell of gay bills, that were passed in Lincoln’s time?! We are literal angels and True makers of God.
There is no greater compliment… Through thick and thin, I must always remember this, in my kind heart.
I dyed my hair all this time, to please men. But I realize that men love me the way I am. That sting woke me up bad! No longer was I going to hurt my skin! My skin is just fine though. You see, I have always tried to enhance my image, because I wanted men’s approval. I realize that I can end that notion..!
It’s a blessing to know that I’m every man’s Dream… I’m not thin or fat. But I want to be slimmer. I’m naturally rubenesque! I will always be a little chubby and I’m happy with that! This helps me to realize just how important my bf is to me! We will be together after two years? Only God can say…
We met 4 years ago. It was love at first site. He was tall, robust and overweight, but slim. I was large. We both thought we couldn’t have each other unless we lost weight. He became anorexic, and I nearly OD’d on diet pills. I quit, but not him! After some time, he came to his senses! I love him big and natural. Just like how he likes me!
I don’t have to be stick thin to please his senses. He loves me just as I am, and I was WAY bigger when we 1st met! Thanks! It was confirmed to me this past Sunday that Prop. 8 won! I was saddened, and I felt like giving up the cause! I was in a real bad place! But last night, after talking to God, I can understand why we gay men are so hated?!
We are Angels…literally angels. We are makers of our own Destiny, that the Universe did not –and never will- grant straight people. God created us different to be unique and save this world. We’re not feminine or masculine energy. We are real humans who change anything we touch for the good!
Sadly we are sometimes used to enhance The Straight Lifestyle. But yet we still fight for our own liberty. America will be a place for us One Day, to celebrate. Remember, this nation is still new, and history doesn’t tell of gay bills, that were passed in Lincoln’s time?! We are literal angels and True makers of God.
There is no greater compliment… Through thick and thin, I must always remember this, in my kind heart.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Hello people!
Well my friend introduced me to the Mathew Sheppard story! God it scares me since, hate crimes still occur. Gay Panic, is never an excuse! Well may he rest in peace! I’m sure he was a very nice man! I think his killers were both gay, and self-resented!“Matt was like most young gay men I know, he had a great sense of humor and quick wit . . . On the outside he always seemed happy. He did want to fit in, and for the most part had no trouble doing so. He was always fun to be around . . . I never new Matt to be into party drugs. Matt was a typical young gay man, bitchy to those he did like and fiercely loyal to those he loved. Nothing less then a great kid.”
http://www.stophate.us/shepard/memories.html
The Sheppard’s – as far as the movie goes- appears to be the typical Christian family! Fundamentalist family! I’m a nice person, but yet I know some will hate me to an extent. But I still move on… At first, these kinds of parents, won’t understand, but eventually they accept!
Watching this story helped me to realize that, my father had always known! We went fishing, and I guess I was less than interested. Wasn't he scared to go fishing with me, in the middle of nowhere, with no one around?! But he fished and caught many fish! I just stood there, and gazed at the water!
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