You dug your own grave!!!

Well it is nearly the end half of 2009, and I can’t believe it! A lot has happened in my life, and I have grown so much. My Dessert Life Period has evolved to great heights. I have grown so that I’m not so afraid of dumb things, which stood in my path like before!

To be honest, fighting for gay rights in my town has been tough. I’m the only one, who fights for us, and I get no support in return. I’m only human, and I refuse to clean up after closet cases who won’t join me! The nerve of these people to ask for my best wishes in their hetero marriages, when they are miserable living in the closet. Fuck that!

I don’t think so! Everything is all up to me, and I get fed up with it! What are these closet cases going to do, when I leave this town?! I truly wish they would wake the fuck up, and I pray about that! I’m sick of it! To be honest, if I EVER have to witness one of my gay friends –under religious pressures- choosing to go back into the closet ever again, then I may just faint and never wake up!

What are they so afraid of?! Personally, I have a go to hell attitude. What I do with my life, is no one’s concern! If you are one of the closet cases, then I TRULY DON’T FEEL SORRY FOR YOU!!! You get what you settle for in life, and you dig your own grave everyday! You know that, as well as I do!

I DO NOT FEEL SORR FOR YOU! YOU DUG YOUR OWN GRAVE!!!!

Finals

Well it is almost finals week for me. This means, spending day and night studying for that A! I will begin that tomorrow. I have much to do tomorrow. It is pouring here at my school. I hate rain, since where I’m staying is drenched in dirt!

I may watch Jurassic Park 3 today. It was a load of fun to watch in the theater! I believe I will get an A for sure?! If not, a C!

Let them go 2

Some of your friends may be your relatives. To become friends with you again, they will use the “because we are related” excuses! I have learned by now that anyone can hate you, even your so-called genetic/blood relatives. You see, I have some relatives which are Polynesian –not that I’m part of that group- and in that culture, they TOTALLY believe in the saying: Blood is thicker than water! Family is everything and some of these people –especially if they’re religious freaks- will tell about their whole line of ancestry, even though it’s filled with myths and lies!

It’s a myth to think that “blood is thicker than water”, because anyone is obligated to hate you! Blood or not, someone can hate you, so that myth falls in the well! Blood is not thicker than water!

Let them go...

Let friends go, when they are not good. Let people criticize you, and judge you. I broke up with my friends long ago. Back in 2007. Last year, they tried to reconcile with me..! I realize, that once friends turn out to be bad, then you should just move on!

Bad friends will only try to hang with you, only when they want something. They will use bribes. Let them go, and let their hate go. Their hate is so strong, that they only destroy themselves!!! That is their real enemy, which they will never conquer!

Sunshine

Reinventing me hasn’t been easy lately. I’ve had to deal with trials in the last year, which has crippled me! Hateful/racist relatives, dark witchcraft and homphobism! I left my church 2 years ago. It caused me to distance myself from my parents from August to December of 2008.

The truth be told, they just didn’t understand that I have my own beliefs about God! I believe that God is all love, and doesn’t send people to hell! I believe there is a literal heaven, but you don’t have to go there, once you die!

These trials set me back, so that I was blinded. I forgot my real mission in life. Actually I lost my hope of my legacy…to my gays! I stopped dying my hair –which left me heavily and emotionally depressed- and just gave up on life. I forgot how bright life was! The only thing I did to my hair was relax it!

The truth be told, not everyone believes in God! I have to remember that! People have no problem living lies in their life! I love God. In January I began to pick up the pieces. I lost my faith in God! Why would a loving God cause so much pain in my life?! I now realize that my trials and challenges may pain me, but that they only draw me closer to the Lord!

But once again I will pick myself up and continue in my legacy! Bless my People, and they will prevail and overcome any trials and challenges, which come into their Life. We…are Angels..!

Cold..!

I love cherries, and this wallpaper!
I have a sore throat today, and I could use some hard candy! But instead I'll just drink some lemonade! I love Country Time, better than Kool-Aid though! But KA cherry rules! My hair is pale blonde and I luvs it!

But during the summer, I'll have red hair. I'm still undecided on what color red I'll pick?! I refuse to go for an orange-reddish color! I want real-red or violet red!

The products I chose are:
Color Vive Pro-

Tresemme Colorthrive-

Redken treatment-

Nice N' Easy-

Loreal Colorist Cherry Bark-