Well today is a good day. All is fine with me. I realize that through my challenges that I have to put my faith fully in Heavenly Father. If you go through hell, and yet you STILL are not getting the point of why God put you through that, then you really are DUMB in every way! God gives up trials, and if we find the meaning behind it, then we will be happier. But it's up to our own spirits to find that message.

That's my view and finding the message behind a trial. A Mormon male missionary serves two years in the field. I only served six. I was sent home because a doctor diagnosed me with depression. But I got a certificate, which stated that I did complete my mission. Anyway, even though I was depressed I still could have finished the whole two years. But I believe that I was sent home from another reason.

Shortly after I came home, I realized that being gay was more and more of a reality with every passing month. That's why I had to come home. God needed me for another mission- as a Gay man. He needed me to discover myself, and inspire other gay people to accept themselves as who they are.

It surprises me that some gay people go about life saying that they are advocates of being a Homosexual. Yet they would want to change if they had the chance. I think what they don’t realize, is that God created them in a special way.